Some of the beginning

So I will just start with a brief overview of our past journey. Matt and I were married in June of 2007. After being married for about a year and a half we decided to go off birth control and just see what happened.  I wasnt in a huge hurry to have children but I knew that Matt wanted to sooner then later. I was thinking about school and still trying to decide where I wanted to be career wise in my future. We decided that I would go ahead and start Surgical Tech school and if I were to become pregnant then great. Shortly after we unexpectedly ended up getting custody of our 3 month old niece. This then turned into becoming permanent and we could have not have asked for a greater blessing.  Adoption was final with Nevaeh soon after her first birthday and she was forever our little girl. With Nevaeh growing up we decided we should start trying again so she could have a sibling. Nevaeh turned 3 the end of Sept and we still had not became pregnant. After both of us had been through some testing we both realized we may never be Able to have children and we were ready to be done trying. I was ready to start looking back into school for my RN. A week before Christmas I had a positive pregnancy test. I couldn't believe this was happening. This was my first time ever having a positive pregnancy test in my life and all of the emotions were overwhelming. Little did I know this was the beginning of a journey that would change our life's forever in several different ways and many ups and downs.

The beginning of a whole new journey....

Wow. Im not sure where to even begin. I have been told by so many people in my life right now that I need to get our experience as a family out there to help me cope with the loss of our precious baby boy Hudson.  I hope with letting you in on our journey through the last couple years will maybe help at least one family out there who is struggling with not being able to conceive for a couple of years to adopting and then getting pregnant and finding out that your unborn son has Spina Bifida when you were ready to be ok with just having your one angel baby. These last couple years have been the hardest/ rewarding years of our life and I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I hope to enjoy writing it. Just bare with me in this difficult time of our past journey, our present journey and our unknown future that life holds for us!!!